SUBUD

SUBUD

Winter Sonata

You're My Everything

Don't Sleep Away This Night

Ordinary People

Tercipta Untukku

Memories in Bali

Full House

Tuesday, October 10, 2006

Bizzare Love Triangle

Every time I think of you
I get a shot right through into a bolt of blue
It’s no problem of mine but it’s a problem I find
Living a life that I can’t leave behind

There’s no sense in telling me
The wisdom of a fool won’t set you free
But that’s the way that it goes
And it’s what nobody knows
And every day my confusion grows

Every time I see you falling
I get down on my knees and pray
I’m waiting for that final moment
You’ll say the words that I can’t say

I feel fine and I feel goodI
feel like I never should
Whenever I get this way,
I just don’t know what to say
Why can’t we be ourselves like we were yesterday

I’m not sure what this could mean
I don’t think you’re what you seem
I do admit to myself
That if I hurt someone else
Then we’d never see just what we’re meant to be

Every time I see you falling
I get down on my knees and pray
I’m waiting for that final moment
You’ll say the words that I can’t say

I Finally Found Someone

I finally found someone,
that knocks me off my feet
I finally found the one,
that makes me feel complete

We started over coffee,
we started out as friends
It’s funny how from simple things,
the best things begin

This time it’s different,
It’s all because of you
It’s better than it’s ever been

Cause we can talk it through
Oohh, my favorite line was “Can I call you sometime?”
It’s all you had to say
To take my breath away

This is it, oh, I finally found someone
Someone to share my life
I finally found the one,
to be with every night

‘Cause whatever I do,
It’s just got to be you
My life has just begun
I finally found someone. . .

Did I keep you waiting,
I didn’t mind
I apologize,
Baby, that’s fine
I would wait forever
Just to know you were mine

You know I love your hair,
Are you sure it looks right?
I love what you wear,
Isn’t it the time?
You’re exceptional,
I can’t wait for the rest of my life . . .

This is it, oh, I finally found someone
Someone to share my lifeI finally found the one,
to be with every night
‘Cause whatever I do,
It’s just got to be you

My life has just begun
I finally found someone,
Whatever I do,
t’s just got to be you
My life has just begunI finally found someone

HAMPA....

Kupejamkan mata ini
Mencoba tuk melupakan
Segala kenangan indah
Tentang dirimu…Tentang mimpiku

Semakin aku mencoba
Bayangmu semakin nyata
Merasuk hingga ke jiwa
Tuhan tolonglah…Diriku

Entah dimana…Dirimu berada
Hampa terasa hidupku tanpa dirimu
Apakah disana…Slalu rindukan aku
Seperti diriku yang slalu merindukanmu
Selalu merindukanmu

Tak bisa aku ingkari
Engkaulah satu-satunya
Yang bisa membuat jiwaku
Yang pernah mati…Menjadi berarti

Namun kini kau menghilang
Bagaikan ditelan bumi
Tak pernahkah kau sadari
Arti cintamu…Untukku

I'll Light Like a Candle

I spend my time today
Just thinking of u
My heart and my mind
are fell when missing u

I can’t wait for the moment
When u finally back in my arms
So for now while u’re not around

The thought of u keeps me warm
I’m longing for your touch
And your kisses
I really miss

I hope you come home soon
That until then this is what i do
I’ll light a candleT
o see when u get home

Just to let u know
That i’m waiting so long for u to hold me
Until the night u will stay(Stay with me forever)

I’ll light a candle in the window
Hurry come my way
Just the thought of u
Gets me through my days

U constantly in my mind
and never be seen go away
I can feel your touch in my dreams
I dont want to open my eyes

Just to know that u’re waiting for me
Makes me feel warm inside
It’s only time that keep us apar
tBut in a moment
We’ll be face to face and heart to heart

There’s nothing
Than even to know
That u’re coming home
Don’t u worry
U wont be alone too long

When the morning comes
And i see your face
Lying next to me
We will making love foreverD
ont ever leave

Terbaik Untukmu

Aku sadar kalau kini
Kita sudah smakin menjauh
Sempat aku berpikir ini
Kau yg menginginkannya
Lepas dari pelukku

Oh kini aku sadari
Ini salahku
Tak ingin ku terlambat dan sesali

Maafkanlah bila ku selalu
Membuatmu marah dan benci padaku
Kulakukan itu semua
Hanya untuk buatmu bahagia

Mungkin ku cuma tak bisa pahami
Bagaimana cara tunjukkan maksudku
Aku cuma ingin jadi
Terbaik Untukmu

Aku ingin kau tetap di sini bersamaku
Jangan Pergi
Berikan satu kesempatan
Untuk ku membuktikan
sesungguhnya cintaku

HEBAT

Bagaikan tetesan hujan di batasnya kemarau
berikan kesejukan yg lama tak kunjung datang
menghapus dahaga jiwaku akan cinta sejati

Betapa sempurna dirimu di mata hatiku
tak pernah kurasakan damai sedamai bersamamu
tak ada yg bisa yg mungkin kan mengganti tempatmu

Kau membuat ku merasa hebat
karena ketulusan cintamu
ku merasa teristimewa hanya
hanya karena, karena cinta
kau beri padaku sepenuhnya
buatku selalu merasa berarti
kini ku merasa hebat

karena kau yang membuatku makin kuat
jantungku bergerak cepat
semua yg berat bisa lewat
ini kah cinta yg sejati

melayang ku terbang berenang di awan
tak akan kita kan lepas dan jatuh sekarang
Cinta, sang cinta, kita kan terus mencinta

Pecundang Sejati

Dalam diam jiwaku
Telah terluka memilikimu
Namun ku tak kan bisa
Tuk selamanya menjadi cintamu*

Sesungguhnya hanya dirimu
Tapi mereka tak mengerti
Dan menentang cinta ku denganmu

Ku tlah menyerah slamanya
Dan mengakhiri kisah kita
Meski air mata membunuhku

Memang pecundang sejati…
Yang tak sanggup perjuangkan cinta
Maafkan semua cintaku ku meninggalkanmu

Janganlah kau tanyakan
tentang janjiku yg pernah terucap
karena semua tlah nyatakini diriku mengingkari

Karena Ku Sayang Kamu

Seandainya, kau ada disini denganku
Mungkin ku tak sendiri
Bayanganmu, yang selalu menemaniku
Hiasi malam sepiku
Kuingin bersama dirimu

Ku tak akan pernah, berpaling darimu
Walau kini, kau jauh dariku
Kan slalu kunanti
Karna ku sayang kamu

Hati ini, selalu memanggil namamu
Dengarlah melatiku
Ku berjanji, hanyalah untukmu cintaku
Takkan pernah ada yg lain

Adakah rindu di hatimu
Seperti rindu yang kurasa
Sanggupkah kuterus terlena
Tanpamu disisiku,
ku kan slalu menantimu

Seandainya, kau ada disini denganku
Mungkin ku tak sendiri
Bayanganmu, yang selalu menemaniku
Hiasi malam sepiku
Kuingin bersama dirimu

Ku tak akan pernah, berpaling darimu
Walau kini, kau jauh dariku
Kan slalu kunanti
Karna ku sayang kamu

Kan slalu kunanti
Karna ku sayang kamu

Monday, October 09, 2006

Adakah Kau Mau

Bolehkah hatiku
Mengetuk pintu hatimu
Dan biarkan jiwaku
Merasuki isi jiwamu

Biarkan kau memimpikan
Apa yang selalu ku mimpikan
Biarkan kau merindukan
Apa yang selalu ku rindukan

Ijinkan hatiku
Menyelimuti dinginnya hatimu
Dan relakan jiwaku
Meleburkan kerasnya jiwamu

Aku memang tak sempurna
Aku hanya bisa menyayangimu
Aku memang bukan impianmu
Aku hanya bisa mencintaimu

Adakah kau mau
Menyambut tulusku?

For some one that I love "cayaga"
(Ziel)


Tak Bisakah.....?

Hatiku bimbang dengan tetap pikirkanmu
Selalu-s’lalu dalam hatiku
Kumelangkah sejauh apapun itu
Selalu kau didalam hatiku

Ku berjalan-berjalan memutar waktu
Berharap temukan sisa hatimu
Mengertilah ku ingin engkau begitu
Mengerti kau didalam hatiku

Tak Bisakah kau menungguku
Hingga nanti tetap menunggu
Tak Bisakah kau menuntunku
Menemani dalam hidupku

Ku berjalan-berjalan memutar waktu
Berharap temukan sisa hatimu
Mengertilah ku ingin engkau begitu
Mengerti kau didalam hatiku

Jangan Kau mencari hidupku
Kemana Kau taruh isi hatiku
Tunggu sejenak aku disitu
Jalanku jalan menemukanmu

Tak Bisakah kau menungguku
Hingga nanti tetap menunggu
Tak Bisakah kau menuntunku
Menemani dalam hidupku

Menanti Sebuah Jawaban


Aku tak bisa luluhkan hatimu
Dan aku tak bisa menyentuh cintamu
Seiring jejak kakiku bergeter
Aku tak terpakut oleh cintamu

Menelusup hariku dengan harapan
Namun kau masih terdiam membisu

Sepenuhnya aku ingin memelukmu
Mendekap penuh harapan ‘tuk mencintaimu

Setulusnya aku akan terus menunggu
Menanti sebuah jawaban ‘tuk memilikimu

Betapa piluhnya rindu menusuk jiwaku
Semoga kau tahu isi hatiku
Dan seiring waktu yang terus berputar
Aku masih terhanyut dalam mimpiku

Every Heart

ikutsu namida wo nagashitara
Every Heart sunao ni nareru darou
dare ni omoi wo tsutaetara

Every Heart kokoro mitasareru no darou
nagai nagai yoru ni obieteita tooi hoshi ni inotteta
meguru meguru toki no naka debokutachi wa ai wo sagashiteiru
tsuyoku tsuyoku naritai karakyou mo takai sora
miageteiru donna egao ni deaetara

Every Heart yume ni fumida seru no hito wa kanashimi no mukou ni
Every Heart shiawase ukabete nemuru itsuka
itsuka subete no tamashii gayasuraka ni nareru you ni
meguru meguru toki no naka de

bokutachi wa ikite nanika wo shirutoki ni warai sukoshi nai
tekyou mo mata aruki tsudzukete
yukuosanai kioku no katasumi niatataka na basho ga aru
so sweet hoshi tachi ga hanasu mirai wa itsumo kagayaiteita so shine

meguru meguru toki no naka de boku tachi wa ai wo
sagashiteiru tsuyoku tsuyoku naritai karakyou mo takai sora miageteiru
meguru meguru toki no naka de boku tachi wa ikite nanika wo shirutoki ni warai sukoshi naitekyou mo mata aruki tsudzukete yuku

My Other Soul


Wahai dikau belahan Jiwaku,
Pernahkah kau coba merasakan keberadaan ku?
Pernahkah kau coba pikirkan keberadaan ku?
Karena ku disini menanti...mencari...dan berharap...

Suatu saat jiwa kita akan bersatu kembali,
seperti saat TUHAN menakdirkan kita untuk bersatu

Dan kemudian kita terpisah untuk masuk ke alam dunia ini...

Dan jika di dunia ini kita tak pernah bisa bersatu,
TUHAN akan menyatukan jiwa kita seperti sediakala
di kehidupan setelah ini....abadi....
:: De Javu

Silent Soul

Pernah kah kau coba untuk pejamka mata,
menutup semua pandangan keduniawian ini?

Pernah kah kau coba untuk menutup telinga,
sunyikan pendengaran dari suara-suara keduniawian ini?

Pernah kah kau coba untuk menenggelamkan semua pikiranmu
dan memusatkan pada satu hal saja, TUHAN.

Matamu kelak akan melihat berjuta cahaya indah yang sekejap merasuk kedalam sukma mu.

Telingamu kelak akan mendengar suara merdu nan mengalun syahdu membelai kelubuk hatimu.

Pikiranmu kelak akan terbuka lebar, dan begitu tenang, dan begitu nyaman, dan begitu teduh
sehingga kau tak akan pernah mau memikirkan yang lain.
Kini kau telah memiliki segalanya!


:: De Javu

Flying Nowhere....

Is that you that I always catch?
Is that you that I always thinking about?

Night & Day struggle with you
I try to follow with you,
Like a water i the river
I try to Flow with you,
Like a wind in the sky

I try to hide from you
But you always find me
I always want to run
But you always get over me

I wanna scream!
Scream aload, but no voice heard

I scared with you
But you always makes me feel....that I need you!

I'm tired with you
I'm tired and I wanna cry
But there's no tears left

I wanna get free, gone away...fly away...feel free!

There's no burden to bring
There's no more tears fall
No more heart get hurt
No more anything left behind

I wanna take a break from you...
Would you release me, WORLD?


:: De Javu

My Life

I have a life
that I could never get to planed

I have a life
that somebody stoled from my sleeping beauty

I have a life
that even my two hand couldn't have a strenght to do something

I have a life
that even my two feet couldn't have a power to take a step

I have a life
that also my eyes couldn't see clearly what's goin' on

I have a life
that my brain couldn't think normaly,
dreams & reality are seems blend and melt down

I have a body without a soul
I have a brain without a mind
and I have a heart with nothing!


:: De Javu

LOVE's SIN


If I could tell you one thing
that would be makes it all better

I don't know why
My voices seem dissapears everytime I try to start

I don't know why
Even my heart screams to me, yelling at me to say it,
My mouth seem locked and sealed

But there is one thing for sure
that you should know,
and one thing for sure
that I always told you before,

One thing that I told to you
over and over again
that never get me bored

One thing for sure
that comes from my soul,
not just from my heart & my mind

One thing that I know for sure
that you feel the same...

One thing that makes us feel
more bitter if we try to continue,
but also more bitter if we try to stop!

It is a SIN, because of LOVE
that come from nowhere to ours.

It is a LOVE, that caused a SIN
that come from nowhere to ours

One thing for sure that; I Always Love You,
even HELL comes to me!
:: De Javu

Thursday, October 05, 2006

SONG OF MAN (A Tear & A Smile)

I was here from the moment of the beginning, and here I am still.
And I shall remain here until the end of the world,For there is no ending to my grief-stricken being.
I roamed the infinite sky, and soared in the ideal world, and floated through the firmament.

But here I am, prisoner of measurement.

I heard the teachings of Confucius;I listened to Brahma’s wisdom;
I sat by Buddha under the Tree of Knowledge.
Yet here I am, existing with ignorance and heresy.

I was on Sinai when Jehovah approached Moses;I saw the Nazarene’s miracles at the Jordan;
I was in Medina when Mohammed visited.
Yet I here I am, prisoner of bewilderment.

Then I witnessed the might of Babylon;I learned of the glory of Egypt;
I viewed the warring greatness of Rome.
Yet my earlier teachings showed the weakness and sorrow of those achievements.

I conversed with the magicians of Ain Dour;I debated with the priests of Assyria;
I gleaned depth from the prophets of Palestine.
Yet, I am still seeking truth.

I gathered wisdom from quiet India;I probed the antiquity of Arabia;
I heard all that can be heard.
Yet, my heart is deaf and blind.

I suffered at the hands of despotic rulers;I suffered slavery under insane invaders;
I suffered hunger imposed by tyranny;
Yet, I still possess some inner power with which I struggle to greet each day.

My mind is filled, but my heart is empty;My body is old, but my heart is an infant.
Perhaps in youth my heart will grow,
But I pray to grow old and reach the moment of my return to God.
Only then will my heart fill!

I was here from the moment of the beginning,
and here I am still.
And I shall remain here until the end of world,
For there is no ending to my grief-stricken being

:: Kahlil Gibran ::

Kehidupan

Tidak mungkin melukis dihadapan orang-orang buta,
dan menarik suara jiwa dihadapan orang tuli.
Sekuntum bunga yang tak tersentuh, ia hidup & mati sebagai perawan.

Pengetahuan adalah cahaya yang memperkaya kehangatan hidup.
& semua dapat memperolehnya jika mencarinya.
Kepada orang-orang yang tidak dapat mendengar & memahami,
si penyair tidak akan dapat menyampaikan suara jiwanya.

Seni adalah burung yang terbang bebas diangkasa atau merayap dengan gembira di permukaan bumi tak ada seorang pun yang dapat merubahnya.

Ada 2 kelompok besar manusia di dunia –Pencari kehidupan dan pencari kebenaran
yang satu ingin hidup lebih lama, yang satu ingin mengetahui lebih banyak,
yaitu para penyair & ilmuan.

Ketika kehidupan tidak mendapati penyanyi untuk mendendangkan hatinya,
dia menciptakan filusuf untuk mengungkapkan pikirannya.

Ketika kamu menyanyikan keindahan,
meskipun di tengah gurun akan ada yang mendengarkan.

Kesengsaraan adalah batu ujian untuk menguji integritas seseorang.
Orang yang mendengar kebenaran tidak kurang mulia dari yang menguncapkannya
.

:: Kahlil Gibran ::

Cinta

Cinta ibarat jaring laba-laba diantara 2 bunga.
Dekat satu sama lain.
Cinta adalah seekor burung yang indah, ingin di tangkap tapi menolak untuk disakiti.

Ketika cinta memangilmu, ikutilah dengannya meskipun jalan yg harus kau tempuh keatas & terjal.

Jika ahli kimia dapat menyarikan dari bagian-bagian hatinya,
rasa kasihan, hormat, damba, kesabaran, sesal, kejut, & maaf, & menjadikannya satu kesatuan maka ia telah menciptakan sebuah atom yg disebut cinta.

Cinta adalah pemersatu 2 hati,
bersatu dalam kasih sayang yg tak dapat dipahami.
Satu-satunya jalan menemukan pikiran yg jarang terjadi.
Yang merupakan pemberian Tuhan, sebuah berkat antara mereka.

Yang mengisi bumi dengan keharuman.
Inilah cinta ! Aku mencintaimu dengan harapan.
Kini aku mencintaimu dengan ketakutan.

cintaku lebih kuat dari yg telah lalu.
Tapi aku takut padamu.

Cinta adalah satu-satunya kebebasan di atas dunia ini, dia mengangkat jiwa begitu tinggi, Yang hukum-hukum manusia & kenyataan alam tdk akan dapat mengubah arah / merintanginya.

Jangan kau kira cinta datang dari keakraban yang lama & pendekatan yang tekun.
Cinta adalah anak kecocokan jiwa & jika itu tidak pernah ada,
cinta tidak akan pernah tercipta dalam hitungan tahun bahkan millennium.

Betapa indahnya kehidupan, kasihku,
ia seperti hati seorang penyair, yg penuh cahaya dan kelembutan. & betapa kejamnya kehidupan cintaku,

ia seperti seorang penjahat, yang mengancam dengan keburukan & ketakutan.
Cinta tidak memberi apapun kecuali dirinya sendiri & tidak meminta apapun selain cinta itu sendiri.

Ia tak memiliki & tidak dimiliki karena cinta hanya untuk cinta.

:: Kahlil Gibran ::

Denting

Everytime

Who am i .. ??

You Are a Dreaming Soul
Your vivid emotions and imagination takes you away from this world So much so that you tend to live in your head most of the time You have great dreams and ambitions that could be the envy of all... But for you, following through with your dreams is a bit difficult You are charming, endearing, and people tend to love you. Forgiving and tolerant, you see the world through rose colored glasses. Underneath it all, you have a ton of passion that you hide from others. Always hopeful, you tend to expect positive outcomes in your life. Souls you are most compatible with: Newborn Soul, Prophet Soul, and Traveler Soul
You Are Midnight
You are more than a little eccentric, and you're apt to keep very unusual habits. Whether you're a nightowl, living in a commune, or taking a vow of silence - you like to experiment with your lifestyle. Expressing your individuality is important to you, and you often lie awake in bed thinking about the world and your place in it. You enjoy staying home, but that doesn't mean you're a hermit. You also appreciate quality time with family and close friends.
You Are The Star
You represent the ultimate in truth and purity. Insightful and illuminating, you provide guidance for others. You also demonstrate unselfish, unconditional love. You posses many spiritual gifts, including the ability to heal. Your fortune: Your future is looking brighter by the day. The near future will be a time of both hope and healing. Luck is about to come your way, perhaps the best luck you have ever seen. Life is about to get a lot easier and much better!
You Are Wind
Strong and overpowering A force to be reckoned with, no one dares cross you You have the power to change everything around you You are best known for: your wrath Your dominant state: commanding
You Are a Daisy
You see the world with an artist's eye. Finding beauty is easy for you - even in the dullest of moments. You notice all of the colors of the world, from fresh grass to sunsets. You are a total optimist and hedonist. You love to drink life in.
You Are Winter!
Intelligent Serious Cozy Calm Shy
You Are Psyche!
Eternally in search of purpose and insight. You're curious and creative with a total sense of wonder. Totally empathetic, you pick up on other's moods easily. Just be sure to pamper yourself as well!
You Are a White Rose
You represent youthfulness and purity. Your vibe: Sweet and heavenly Falling in love with you: is like falling in love for the first time
You Belong in London
A little old fashioned, and a little modern. A little traditional, and a little bit punk rock. A unique soul like you needs a city that offers everything. No wonder you and London will get along so well.
You Are Spider-Man
Quick and agile, you have killer instincts (literally). And that kind of makes up for the whole creepy spider thing.
You Were A Jaguar
A shapeshifter that understands the patterns of chaos. You are powerful and move without fear in dark places.
In a Past Life...
You Were: A Genius Poet. Where You Lived: Austria. How You Died: Buried alive.
The Keys to Your Heart
You are attracted to those who have a split personality - cold as ice on the outside but hot as fire in the heart. In love, you feel the most alive when your lover is creative and never lets you feel bored. You'd like to your lover to think you are stylish and alluring. You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please. Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with. Your risk of cheating is 100%. You are not suited for a monogamous relationship. You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred. In this moment, you think of love as commitment. Love only works when both people are totally devoted.

Me, My Self and I

My photo
Sementara di dunia, Indonesia
Just an ordinary people who live with dreams & hope. I used to make a poem to shared what I feel, shared what's in my thought and shared because I can't say it through.