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Monday, June 11, 2007

Grand Opening

Keikhlasan....
Itulah kata kuncinya...

Tiba-tiba semua gelap...

Dan tidak begitu lama...banyak sekali kilatan cahaya seperti lampu blitz di depan mata...
menyilaukan..namun ku sungguh tak berdaya...

Ingin ku buka mata...namun ku tak kuasa...
Cahaya itu terus menerus berkilat-kilatan di depan mata.

Tubuhku serasa terhuyung-huyung..
Ku terpontang panting ke sana kemari...ku masih tak berdaya.

Kemudian ku terjatuh....tergeletak....masih tak berdaya.

Ku rasakan rebah di tempat yg sungguh membuat ku tenang...dan bahagia,
namun ku masih saja tak berdaya.

Dari dada ini, tiba2 kurasa sedih dan pilu yang luar biasa....
Ku meraung menangis, sambil menyebut namaMU...ALLAHU AKBAR!!!

Dan setelah puas mengeluarkan pilu di dada...ku terdiam...dan ku masih tak berdaya.
Dalam diam ku....ku menerawang...entah kemana....nafas ku rasa...dan ingin ku hirup udara...
Ku hempaskan lagi....ku hirup lagi...berkali2 kali...ku bersyukur...aku masih hidup.

Dan ku masih saja diam...dan tak berdaya.

Dan ku rasakan sesuatu mengangkatku tinggi ke atas!

Namun sesuatu yang lain menahanku!

Ku terus saja di permainkan...ke atas...kemudian di hempaskan ke bawah...

Tangan kanan ku bersaksi...ku harus diam!

Bergetar...bergerak...dan kemudian kembali diam.

Getaran dingin menyeruak ke sekujur tubuhku...masuk dari tangan kanan ku...
Ke kepalaku...menjalar ke punggung...kemudian ku rasakan kaki ku..

Dan ku terbangun...dapati diriku utuh, tergeletak tak berdaya..

Dingin masih ku rasa...dan pipi yang basah...berderai air mata.

Ku kini pasrah....semua kehendakMU, Ya Rabbi...
ALLAHU AKBAR...ALLAH Maha Besar...
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Who am i .. ??

You Are a Dreaming Soul
Your vivid emotions and imagination takes you away from this world So much so that you tend to live in your head most of the time You have great dreams and ambitions that could be the envy of all... But for you, following through with your dreams is a bit difficult You are charming, endearing, and people tend to love you. Forgiving and tolerant, you see the world through rose colored glasses. Underneath it all, you have a ton of passion that you hide from others. Always hopeful, you tend to expect positive outcomes in your life. Souls you are most compatible with: Newborn Soul, Prophet Soul, and Traveler Soul
You Are Midnight
You are more than a little eccentric, and you're apt to keep very unusual habits. Whether you're a nightowl, living in a commune, or taking a vow of silence - you like to experiment with your lifestyle. Expressing your individuality is important to you, and you often lie awake in bed thinking about the world and your place in it. You enjoy staying home, but that doesn't mean you're a hermit. You also appreciate quality time with family and close friends.
You Are The Star
You represent the ultimate in truth and purity. Insightful and illuminating, you provide guidance for others. You also demonstrate unselfish, unconditional love. You posses many spiritual gifts, including the ability to heal. Your fortune: Your future is looking brighter by the day. The near future will be a time of both hope and healing. Luck is about to come your way, perhaps the best luck you have ever seen. Life is about to get a lot easier and much better!
You Are Wind
Strong and overpowering A force to be reckoned with, no one dares cross you You have the power to change everything around you You are best known for: your wrath Your dominant state: commanding
You Are a Daisy
You see the world with an artist's eye. Finding beauty is easy for you - even in the dullest of moments. You notice all of the colors of the world, from fresh grass to sunsets. You are a total optimist and hedonist. You love to drink life in.
You Are Winter!
Intelligent Serious Cozy Calm Shy
You Are Psyche!
Eternally in search of purpose and insight. You're curious and creative with a total sense of wonder. Totally empathetic, you pick up on other's moods easily. Just be sure to pamper yourself as well!
You Are a White Rose
You represent youthfulness and purity. Your vibe: Sweet and heavenly Falling in love with you: is like falling in love for the first time
You Belong in London
A little old fashioned, and a little modern. A little traditional, and a little bit punk rock. A unique soul like you needs a city that offers everything. No wonder you and London will get along so well.
You Are Spider-Man
Quick and agile, you have killer instincts (literally). And that kind of makes up for the whole creepy spider thing.
You Were A Jaguar
A shapeshifter that understands the patterns of chaos. You are powerful and move without fear in dark places.
In a Past Life...
You Were: A Genius Poet. Where You Lived: Austria. How You Died: Buried alive.
The Keys to Your Heart
You are attracted to those who have a split personality - cold as ice on the outside but hot as fire in the heart. In love, you feel the most alive when your lover is creative and never lets you feel bored. You'd like to your lover to think you are stylish and alluring. You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please. Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with. Your risk of cheating is 100%. You are not suited for a monogamous relationship. You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred. In this moment, you think of love as commitment. Love only works when both people are totally devoted.

Me, My Self and I

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Sementara di dunia, Indonesia
Just an ordinary people who live with dreams & hope. I used to make a poem to shared what I feel, shared what's in my thought and shared because I can't say it through.