SUBUD

SUBUD

Winter Sonata

You're My Everything

Don't Sleep Away This Night

Ordinary People

Tercipta Untukku

Memories in Bali

Full House

Friday, September 29, 2006

At Taubah: 41

"Berangkatlah kamu baik dalam keadaan merasa ringan maupun berat,
dan berjihadlah kamu dengan harta dan dirimu di jalan Allah.
Yang demikian itu adalah lebih baik bagimu,
jika kamu mengetahui
(At Taubah:41)"

Thursday, September 28, 2006

Bersyukur

"Seringkali orang merasa menderita bukan karena kekurangan,
melainkan karena salah membandingkan.
Melihat yang lebih tinggi,
orang akan merasa lebih rendah.
Melihat yang lebih kaya,
orang akan merasa lebih miskin.
Maka, lihatlah yang lebih rendah dari diri kita;
bukan untuk mensyukuri kekurangan orang,
melainkan untuk menjaga rasa syukur diri kita sendiri."
~Aa Gym

Wednesday, September 27, 2006

Alasanmu Untuk Tersenyum Saat Terjaga

Kutatap bulan
Terbayang dirimu menemani
Dalam gelap yang penuh arti
Ditemani sunyi yang berlagu
Izinkan ku simpan bahagia
Saat senyummu mengisi pagiku
Ketika tawamu warnai siangku
Saat ucapmu iringi soreku
Dan ketika sayangmu antarkan aku menuju mimpi

Karena itu biarkan aku
Menjadi sayap yang bawa kau terbang tinggi
Menjadi cahaya yang terangi jalanmu
Menjadi seorang yang temani dirimu gapai mimpi
Menjadi alasanmu tuk tersenyum saat kau terjaga


:: De Javu

Silent Soul

I tried so hard to hide the pain
but deep inside I can't explain
you make feel like no one else before
I'm slowly drowning in my tears
keep on running from my fears
I tried to understand what's going on
:: De Javu

I Wont See You Tonight

Cry alone,
I've gone away
No more nights, no more pain

I've gone alone,
took all my strength
I've made the change,
I won't see you tonight

Sorrow,
sank deep inside my bloodall the ones around me,
I cared for and loved
Building up inside of me
A place so dark, so cold,
I had to set me free

Don't mourn for me,
you're not the one to place the blame
As bottles called my name,
I won't see you tonight

Sorrow,
sank deep inside my bloodall the ones around me,
I cared for and most of all I loved
but I can't see myself that wayplease don't forget me or cry
while I'm away
So far away, I'm gone.

Please don't follow me tonight.
And while I'm gone,
everything will be alright.
No more breath inside
Essence left my heart tonight..
I Wont See You Tonight..


:: De Javu

Tuesday, September 26, 2006

Jauh Mimpiku

Pernah ku simpan jauh rasa ini
Berdua jalani cerita
Kau ciptakan mimpiku
jujurku sesalkan diriku
Kau tinggalkan mimpiku
Namun ku hanya sesalkan diriku
Ku harus lepaskan mu
Melupakan senyummu
Semua Tentangmu
Tentangku...hanya harap
Jauh ku jauh mimpiku...Dengan inginku

Yang Terdalam

Kulepas semua yang kuinginkan
Tak akan kuulangi
Maafkan jika kau kusayangi
Dan bila kumenanti
Pernahkah engkau coba mengerti
Lihatlah ku disini

Mungkinkah jika aku bermimpi
Salahkah tuk menanti
Takkan lelah aku menanti
Takkan hilang cintaku ini
Hingga saat kau tak kembali
Kan kukenang di hati saja

Kau telah tinggalkan hati yang terdalam
Hingga tiada cinta yang tersisa
Di jiwa

ASTAGFIRULLAH

Laa ilahaa’illa anta
Ya hayyu ya qoyyum
Subhanallah wabihamdihi
Subhanallah hiladzim
Kubuka jendela pagi di udara yang letih
Deru geram nyanyian jaman
Bersama berjuta wajah kuarungi mimpi hari
Halalkan segala cara untuk hidup ini
Nafsu jiwa yang membuncah
Menutupi mata hati
Seperti terlupa bahwa nafaskan terhenti
Astaghfirullah,astaghfirullah,astaghfirullah, aladzim
Kubuka jendela pagi dan dosapun menghampiri
Suara jerit hati kuingkari
La ilaha illa anta ya
Subhanaka inni kuntu
Minallahdholimin

Bila Waktu Tlah Berakhir

bagaimana kau merasa bangga
akan dunia yg sementara
bagaimanakah bila semua hilang dan pergi
meninggalkan dirimu
bagaimanakah bila saatnya
waktu terhenti tak kau sadari
masikah ada jalan bagimu untuk kembali
mengulangkan masa lalu
dunia dipenuhi dengan hiasan
semua dan segala yg ada
akan kembali padaNya
bila waktu tlah memanggil
teman sejati hanyalah amal
bila waktu telah terhenti
teman sejati tingallah sepi

LOYAL HEART

Thought the mountain may be removed,
And the seas may fade away,
To our own Master and Lord,
There'll be no double heart for aye!

The Spirit Of Old


The spirit of old,am I?
So sad and so bitter my cry,
Whenever the anchient capital I see,
My heart cries out more bitterly.

Bukan Diriku


Setelahku pahami
Ku bukan yang terbaik yang ada dihatimu
Tak dapat ku sangsikan
Ternyata dirinya lah yang mengerti kamu
Bukanlah diriku

Kini maafkanlah aku
Bila ku menjadi bisu kepada dirimu
Bukan santunku terbungkam
Hanya hatiku terbatas tuk mengerti kamu
Maafkanlah aku

Walau ku masih mencintaimu
Ku harus meninggalkanmu
ku harus melupakanmu
Meski hatiku menyayangimu
Nurani membutuhkan mu
Ku harus merelakan mu

Dan hanyalah dirimu
Yang mampu memahamiku
Yang dapat mengerti aku
Ternyata dirinyalah yang sanggup menyanjungmu
Yang dapat menyentuhmu

Bukanlah diriku

SUDAH

Salahkah aku Mencintamu
Memilikimu
Menyayangimu
Jangan paksakan kita untuk

S'lalu bersama
Jangan paksakan kita untuk
S'lalu mencinta
Bila kita harus berpisah sudah

Biarkan ini semua berakhir sudah
cinta memang tak harus Miliki

Kau Masih Kekasihku

Jauh dilubuk hatiku
Masih terukir namamu
Jauh didasar jiwaku
Engkau masih kekasihku
Tak bisa kutahan laju angin

Untuk semua kenangan yang berlabuh
Hembuskan sepi
Merobek hati

Meski raga ini tak lagi milikmu
Namun di dalam hati sungguh engkau hidup
Entah sampai kapan
Ku tahankan rasa cinta ini
Dan kuberharap semua ini

Bukan kekeliruan seperti yang kukira
Seumur hidupku
Akan menjadi doa untukmu

Andai saja waktu bisa terulang kembali
Akan kuserahkan hidupku disisimu
namun ku tahu itu takkan mungkin terjadi
Rasa ini menyikasaku
sungguh-sungguh menyikasaku

Puisi Penyesalan

Rembulan sinari hatiku yang gelap ini
Andaikan kudapat menggulang hariku yang t’lah lalu
Tetaplah bersamaku di sini, melewati malam ini
Ingatlah masa-masa indah disaat kita bersama
Hapuslah kenangan-kenangan suram disaat kita bersama

Wajahmu selalu terbayang, terbayang di hati ini
Impian-impian tentangmu kembali muncul dalam tidurku
Tidakkah kau ingin merasakannya
Andaikan kudapat menggulang hari yang t’lah lalu
Nuansa harummu membayang di jiwaku
Indah parasmu terbayang di pikiranku
Naifku yang dulu t’lah sirna
Gelora cinta di hati kini kembali
Rasa cintaku tak dapat kutahan
Usah kau marah padaku lagi
Maafkanlah aku, t’rimalah aku kembali


Monday, September 25, 2006

Silent Soul

It's not the pale moon that excites me
That thrills and delights me,
oh no It's just the nearness of you
It isn't your sweet conversation
That brings this sensation,
oh no It's just the nearness of you
When you're in my arms
and I feel you so close to me
All my wildest dreams come true
I need no soft lights to enchant me
If you'll only grant me the right
To hold you ever so tight
And to feel in the night the nearness of you
:: De Javu

LIHAT, DENGAR, RASAKAN

Condongkanlah telingamu
tuk mendengarkan desahan suara cintaku
Yang berseru-seru di balik kabut ketidak percayaanmu
Fokuskanlah matamu

tuk melihat gerakan tubuh kasihku
Yang menari-nari di balik bukit keraguanmu
Tenangkanlah hatimu

tuk merasakan sentuhan hangat sayangku
Yang meraba-raba di balik bayangan ketidak pastianmu

Lihat, dengar, dan rasakan kehadiranku

Gelisah Menanti

Cinta kau datang mebelai
dengan kelembutan nan pedih
Kasih kau datang menyelimuti
dengan kehangatan nan perih

Tidakah kau menyadari
Cinta ini menusuk jiwaku
Belumkah kau megetahui
Kasih ini menelan pikiranku

Kegelisahan hati terus menemani
Dan kau masih terdiam membisu
Ku hanya dapat terus berharap
Semoga kau kan tahu isi hatiku

Dan kini ku menanti dirimu
Hingga akhir hidupku

AOZORA


Sora wo miru to....
kimi wo kagaeru
Tottemo aoi...kokoro naide
Doushitain darou?

Niji ga aru to...
kimi ga koishii
Tottemo shiawase...kokoro naide
Doushitain darou?

Naze,
Jikan wa bokura wo aiteru no wa
mukashi kara dewanai?
Naze desuka?
:: De Javu

My Rainbow

I'm Speechless when you around me
I'm Speechless when I see right into your eyes

I just can't say all the thing that you should know
I'm speechless.....

Baby, how can I tell you this...
What can I do?

The dark cloud has gone
and the sun is shine,
then you suddenly become a rainbow

So colorful, so beautiful...
But I can't touch you!
I just can feel you, here...deep inside my heart

You just a Rainbow...
too beautiful to see, and too hard to let go.

You just a Rainbow...
You just color up my life, my heart
But still I can't touch you!


:: De Javu

Aku Ingin...

Aku ingin,
menyelami samudera hatimu
menyelami hingga lubuk yang terdalam
merasakan kepenatan, kegalauan, kehampaan mu.

Aku ingin,
menembus angkasa jiwamu
melayang, melesat, menerawang
hingga langit ketujuh ragamu.

Aku ingin,
merasakan panas amarahmu
dinginnya diam mu
perihnya luka mu
galaunya gundah mu
dan hangatnya cinta mu.

Aku hanya bisa,
memandangimu....
memandangmu dari balik jendela hatiku

Aku hanya ingin....
mengungkapkan...
mengungkapkan kejujuran hatiku,
karena telah tenggelam dalam bayangan dirimu.

I can't take my eyes of you
I can't take my mind of you
Please forgive my heart
for falling in you....

:: De Javu

SALVATION

I can barely remember my past
Everything seems to disappear so fast
But I recall being jealous and alone
Gazing at the dreams going by

I started my life when you knocked on the door
Found something inside
I didn't dare to ignore

Now I do believe in flowers on the moon
I'll swim beside the golden tide
You crashed by the gate

Captured my fate Salvation
My eyes couldn't see
I hardly breathed
I was diving so deep Salvation

I'm down in the study holding on to my luck
Will you still love me when I call you up?
I gave you my body, the power over me
Come on, bring out the best in me

My heart was asleep Salvation
Some will get broken
Others will get lucky
like me meeting you

Don't pass me by
You crashed by the gate

Captured my fate Salvation
My eyes couldn't see
I hardly breathed

I was down on my knees Salvation
Don't pass me by Don't pass me by
I found salvation, You bring me salvation I found salvation

Hati dan Jiwa


Hati berkata pada jiwa "tidak cukupkah kau menyakitinya!"

"aku tak pernah ingin menyakitinya" jawab jiwa

hati kembali berkata "lupakanlah ia, ia telah bahagia bersama yg lain. bukankah dulu kau meninggalkannya"

"aku dulu meninggalkannya karena ku tak mau menyakiti hatinya" jawab jiwa

"aku tak ingin membohonginya dengan cinta yg belum sepenuhnya utuh" lanjut jiwa

"Dan kini apakah engkau akan dapat memberikan kebahagian padanya?"Tanya hati

jiwa pun terdiam dan membisu.

"Maka lupakanlah dia, biarlah ia mencari kebahagiannya sendiri!" seru hati

Friday, September 22, 2006

Silent Soul

Everything about you is how I wanna be
Your freedom comes naturally
Everything about you resonates happiness
Now I won't settle for less
Everything about you pains my envying
Your soul can't hate anything
Everything about you is so easy to love
They're watching you from above
Give me all the peace and joy in your mind
I want the peace and joy in your mind


:: De Javu

Bersyukur

Al kisah:
suatu saat ada diskusi percakapan antara seseorang dgn keluarga Rasul. org tsb ditanya : "bagaimanakah anda menghadapi nikmat Allah.SWT.?"
orang tersebut menjawab: "jika mendapat nikmat kami bersyukur,jika mendapat cobaan kami bersabar".

keluarga Rasul menjawab: "klo begitu,anda sama spt anjing jika di beri makan tuannya dia bergembira,mgibas2kan ekornya. jika tidak diberi mkn dia duduk menunggu."

Lalu orang tersebut bertanya: "Bagaimanakah anda, ya....keluarga rasul?"
dijawab: "kami jika mendapat nikmat akan bersyukur,& jika medapat cobaan kami tetap besyukur."

Something Stupid


I know I stand in line
Until you think you have the time
To spend an evening with me
And if we go someplace to dance
I know that there's a chance
You won't be leaving with me

Then afterwards we drop into a quiet little place
And have a drink or two
And then I go and spoil it all
By saying something stupid
Like I love you

I can see it in your eyes
You still despise the same old lines
You heard the night before
And though it's just a line to you
For me it's true
And never seemed so right before

I practice every day to find some clever
lines to say
To make the meaning come true
But then I think I'll wait until the evening
gets late
And I'm alone with you

The time is right
Your perfume fills my head
The stars get red
And oh the night's so blue
And then I go and spoil it all
By saying something stupid
Like I love you
I love you...


blowers daughter


And so it is
Just like you said it would be
Life goes easy on me
Most of the time
And so it is
The shorter story
No love, no glory
No hero in her sky

I can't take my eyes off of you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off of you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes...

And so it is
Just like you said it should be
We'll both forget the breeze
Most of the time
And so it is
The colder water
The blower's daughter
The pupil in denial

I can't take my eyes off of you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off of you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes...

Did I say that I loathe you?
Did I say that I want to
Leave it all behind?
can't take my mind off of you
I can't take my mind off you
I can't take my mind off of you
I can't take my mind off you
I can't take my mind off you
I can't take my mind...
My mind...my mind...
'Til I find somebody new

Thursday, September 21, 2006

If I Falling in Love

Ya Allah...jika aku jatuh cinta
cintakanlah aku pada seseorangyang melabuhkan cintanya pada-Mu
Agar bertambah kekuatan ku untuk mencintai-Mu. ...

Ya Allah.....Jika aku jatuh cinta
Jagalah cintaku padanya
agar tidak melebihi cinta ku pada MuYa Allah...
Jika aku jatuh hati....
Izinkanlah aku menyentuh hati seseorang
yang hatinya tertaut pada Mu
agar tidak aku terjatuh dalam jurang cinta nafsu...

Ya Rabbani....jika aku jatuh hati
jagalah hati ku padanya agar tidak aku berpaling kepada Mu
Ya Rabbul Izzati......Jika aku rindu
jagalah rinduku padanya
agar tidak aku lalai dalam merindukan syurga Mu...
Ya Allah....Jika aku menikmati cinta kekasih Mu
Janganlah kenikmatan itu melebihi kenikmatan indahnya bermunajat
di sepertiga malam terakhir Mu

Ya Allah....jika aku jatuh hati pada seseorang
jangan biarkan aku bertatih dan terjatuh
dalam perjalanan yang panjang menyeru manusia kepada Mu
Ya Allah....jika kau halalkan aku merindui seseorang
jangan biarkan aku melampaui batas
sehingga melupakan aku pada cinta hakiki
dan rindu abadi hanya pada Mu

Ya Allah.....Engkau mengetahui bahawa hati-hati ini telah berhimpun dalam cinta pada Mu
Telah berjumpa untuk taat kepada Mu
setelah bersatu dalam dakwah Mu
telah berpadu dalam membela syariat mu
Kukuhkanlah ikatannya

Ya Allah
kekalkanlah ikatannya
tunjukilah jalan-jalannya
penuhilah hati-hati ini dengan Nur Mu yang tidak pernah pudar
lapangkan lah dada-dada kami dengan keimanan kepada Mu dan keindahan bertwakal ke jalan MuAmin

Ya Rabbal Alamin

:: De Javu

Denting

Everytime

Who am i .. ??

You Are a Dreaming Soul
Your vivid emotions and imagination takes you away from this world So much so that you tend to live in your head most of the time You have great dreams and ambitions that could be the envy of all... But for you, following through with your dreams is a bit difficult You are charming, endearing, and people tend to love you. Forgiving and tolerant, you see the world through rose colored glasses. Underneath it all, you have a ton of passion that you hide from others. Always hopeful, you tend to expect positive outcomes in your life. Souls you are most compatible with: Newborn Soul, Prophet Soul, and Traveler Soul
You Are Midnight
You are more than a little eccentric, and you're apt to keep very unusual habits. Whether you're a nightowl, living in a commune, or taking a vow of silence - you like to experiment with your lifestyle. Expressing your individuality is important to you, and you often lie awake in bed thinking about the world and your place in it. You enjoy staying home, but that doesn't mean you're a hermit. You also appreciate quality time with family and close friends.
You Are The Star
You represent the ultimate in truth and purity. Insightful and illuminating, you provide guidance for others. You also demonstrate unselfish, unconditional love. You posses many spiritual gifts, including the ability to heal. Your fortune: Your future is looking brighter by the day. The near future will be a time of both hope and healing. Luck is about to come your way, perhaps the best luck you have ever seen. Life is about to get a lot easier and much better!
You Are Wind
Strong and overpowering A force to be reckoned with, no one dares cross you You have the power to change everything around you You are best known for: your wrath Your dominant state: commanding
You Are a Daisy
You see the world with an artist's eye. Finding beauty is easy for you - even in the dullest of moments. You notice all of the colors of the world, from fresh grass to sunsets. You are a total optimist and hedonist. You love to drink life in.
You Are Winter!
Intelligent Serious Cozy Calm Shy
You Are Psyche!
Eternally in search of purpose and insight. You're curious and creative with a total sense of wonder. Totally empathetic, you pick up on other's moods easily. Just be sure to pamper yourself as well!
You Are a White Rose
You represent youthfulness and purity. Your vibe: Sweet and heavenly Falling in love with you: is like falling in love for the first time
You Belong in London
A little old fashioned, and a little modern. A little traditional, and a little bit punk rock. A unique soul like you needs a city that offers everything. No wonder you and London will get along so well.
You Are Spider-Man
Quick and agile, you have killer instincts (literally). And that kind of makes up for the whole creepy spider thing.
You Were A Jaguar
A shapeshifter that understands the patterns of chaos. You are powerful and move without fear in dark places.
In a Past Life...
You Were: A Genius Poet. Where You Lived: Austria. How You Died: Buried alive.
The Keys to Your Heart
You are attracted to those who have a split personality - cold as ice on the outside but hot as fire in the heart. In love, you feel the most alive when your lover is creative and never lets you feel bored. You'd like to your lover to think you are stylish and alluring. You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please. Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with. Your risk of cheating is 100%. You are not suited for a monogamous relationship. You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred. In this moment, you think of love as commitment. Love only works when both people are totally devoted.

Me, My Self and I

My photo
Sementara di dunia, Indonesia
Just an ordinary people who live with dreams & hope. I used to make a poem to shared what I feel, shared what's in my thought and shared because I can't say it through.